September 2011
4 posts
Jaded
You stand corrected. Still you try to run your worthless mouth.
Telling me that I am the one who is fake, the one who is wrong. Well, I have some news for you, I don’t care.
Nothing you can say to me will make me go away, stop doing what I am doing, becoming who I want to become! Take your words, shove them right back down your throat. I don’t need to hear it, it only adds fuel to...
Sorrow
I fell so hard.
Let’s look back on this. When I first seen you, I thought you were beyond amazing..I knew I had to have you. There was not a doubt in my mind that I was going to fall in love with you.
I gave you everything I possibly could. I let you into my heart, let you lead the way. Even gave you control. Just to show you how much you meant to me.
Everything was fine, until the your...
What Lies Ahead
I don’t close my eyes to remember the past, I do it to dream of the future.
There is always a time to move on. No matter how broken and beaten you think you might be, something is waiting..
To fall. To fail. To hope. To forget.
Those things, we all have to endure. At some point in our lives..it’s just how it’s meant to be. You just have to accept the fact that you are strong,...
Surrender
There is a lot for you to say about me. There are a lot of words that you can use to describe who I am.
But I know my faith, I know my hopes and dreams. I know what I am made of and I know what I am capable of doing. No matter what is being said around me, nothing will be able to bring me down…stop me from what I need to be.
Worthless. Pathetic. Liar.
A waste…
I have heard it all...
February 2011
1 post
Falling Down
I’d rather be blind of the past than to lose my future. I’d rather live it up than set it down. I’d rather be a leader than a follower. I’d rather believe instead of dream. I’d rather be me than anybody else and I plan on being me.
No matter what we decide, we will always have reason. We will always have a way to go. To get in and out. There will be nothing to bring...
September 2010
1 post
In Our Dreams Are Evil
There are so many things we need to realize. There are so many things we need.
We need life. We need to be able to rise up and face all challenges we have to face, either now or later we need to be prepared for the worst…because it’s yet to come.
When you think things can’t get any worse, think again. You will soon realize it can..and it will.
We need to start now. Get ahead...
August 2010
5 posts
Inspiration
As we all move on, we leave footsteps for people to follow. We think we have the lead, but they are so far ahead.
We vow to never fail, let nothing stand in our way of complete control..we are always wrong.
There is so much hate revolving in the air, so much pain.
It’s like a plague that is making us all lose control, go insane.
There is no place to hide from this, nowhere to go. We just...
One Final Time
I spit you out because you are not needed. I spit you out because you are not wanted. I spit you out because you are not here.
There is no more pain, no more suffering, no more hate, no more anger and there is no more misery.
I’m done playing games, I’m done making my sacrifices.
All my memories will soon be erased and I will move on from what is left. I will not wait around here...
Piece By Piece
All this pressure built up inside. All this weight baring down on me.
I don’t think I can last much longer. I don’t think I’m able to hold.
Inch by inch, piece by piece, minute by minute I am slowly falling apart…hoping you are here to catch me, put me together again.
You know, sometimes I wonder if I’m ever meant to be the one who’s on top of this world,...
This Fight
I’ve never felt this way before. I’ve never seen what I see now.
It’s my life and I can’t take it back, but I can make something new. All I need is is for you to say you can, you will, you want this too.
I’m still waiting for your call. It never comes..still staring at your picture.
I lay awake, nothing on my mind but full of thoughts. I can only dream of you, see...
Beautiful Disaster
Can we withstand this anymore? Can we make this one sacrifice?
I dream of you. I whisper your name. I see in your eyes.
I’m so far away and I don’t think I will ever be close.
Pull me under, please. Bring up again. Show me what it’s like to be loved. Will I ever know of you? Sometimes I wonder, but sometimes I know you are here. I’m begging you, come to me.
You are my...
Shattered
We all know how to live. We all know how to think. We all know how to love.
Of course I do, I just can’t breathe. I’m so lost without you, fading away into my own world..that I don’t want to be in.
It’s a world full of pain, suffering, hate…what’s left?
Nothing. I’m destroyed. There is not a moment that goes by, something I can see, something I hear...
July 2010
6 posts
Haunting.
I’m glad your life is beautiful. I hope you are happy beyond words.
While I’m sitting here, ready to explode. I can’t tell you how many times I have to sit and watch everybody have the time of their lives when I am the only one who fades away without a care.
I’m not sure if I am loved.. I”m not sure if I would be missed if I was to leave and never come back.
I...
Heart Of Gold
The more I think, the more I’m tearing. Knowing I don’t have you…I can’t have you.
I don’t even really know you, yet you roam through my mind freely all day and all night.
When I think of you, I feel alive, I feel great. When I see you I feel like the world has stepped away and it’s just me and you. You have no idea the way you make me feel.
These things in...
Bleed No More
Haha.
You think you are in control? You think you have this world all planned out?
I’ve seen the good, I’ve seen the bad, most of all I have seen what really lies underneath. I know you think you have it on lock, I know you believe your secrets are tied down.
We know. We are waiting. We are taking control.
Your time will soon end. Your bullshit will soon meet chaos.
No more will...
Good Mourning/Goodnight
HIM:
Do you feel like a man? Do you feel powerful, strong, like you can take on anything?
Her scars shine so brightly to all who see, her pain floats around freely in her eyes. Now you have made your last mistake, you have done your last wrong.
It’s your life I will take now.
My vengeance reigns and I’m taking control. You will soon feel my fury, my anger, my misery.
Chaos will...
Final Words
These are my final words There’s nothing more to say.
You’ve torn me apart.
You were my loss of hope, faith, strength and will. I need no more pleasure, I need no more pain. I just want to be left alone so I can soak up all the pressure I have been forced to take.
Ah, there is always that complication, always that other way.
If I could change it all, I would. I would give up...
June 2010
13 posts
Spoken Memories
Should we all drown in sorrow? Should we all break down from pain?
It’s hard to find what you want, to find somebody special. You think you hit the jackpot, you think you got lucky this time..but it all falls apart.
There is not worse feeling than not having love, not having anybody to hold. It hurts to know, but I believe it hurts even more to realize it, soak it in your head, throw it in...
Unspoken Memories
Ah, how much my heart aches for you. How much pain I endure just to be by your side. You seem to never know, to never realize.
I’m afraid to sleep. I’m afraid to dream. I’m afraid of tomorrow.
We don’t know what it will be, how it will turn out.
I’m so lost. So lonely. So cold.
Should I keep rising? Should I fall?
Only you can hold me up. Only you can bring me...
Heartbeat
Our clocks run out. Our time has expired. We still live on. We still have faith.
We shall carry on through and through…Nothing shall stop us from what awaits, not matter how we try to avoid, we have to live to hell to get to heaven.
And you are my wait, you are my reason, you are my will to carry on and on.
Give me your love. Give me your heart.
I’m locked away, and only you can...
Above The World
Your kiss. Your eyes. Your touch. Your smile. Your scent. Your hands. Your hugs. Your hair. Your heart. Your love.
Ah, if I could just have those in my life once again. I would do anything in this world I had to, just to be able to say you are mine..
You are my angel. You are my breath. You are my mind. You are my love.
Is there no chance? Is there no hope that I can ever have you again?
...
As I Live
Sometimes I wonder, what am I put here for? Who am I made for? What is my purpose?
There is no way of finding out sooner, I guess I have to live and see…except the problem is, it’s slowly killing me inside, tearing me apart into tiny pieces noboday can see.
I’m hiding it all from the world..not letting anybody know.
What does this mean? What do I do?
I sit. I watch. I beg. I...
How It Ends
Some would say Listen to your heart and it will end you up right where you belong..
Ha. Look where that got me. Just look at me now.
Alone. Helpless. Cold. Desperate.
With The lack of compassion, love, your heart.
I call out to you as loud as I can, you don’t hear me. I guess silence speaks it all. You have nothing more to say, I have nothing more to give.
I always thought this life...
Descend
I have failed myself.. I have failed you… I have failed love…
I guess it’s all over now, there is no room left for me. I have fallen out of the picture, splattered on the floor. Being stepped on by all who walks…there is nothing more I can do, nothing more I can say.
I’m done.I’m finished. I quit. I give up. There is no point in trying anymore..
I guess he...
Desperation
What are we coming to? What are we becoming?
All the things I have said in the past and all I will say in the future, are true..but let me save you some time.
I’m broken. I’m in pieces. I’m dead without you.
Can’t you open your eyes for one second? Can’t you just see what’s going on around you?
Compare pleasure to pain. I don’t think I would know the...
Look Away
Is there a difference between right and wrong anymore? I’m starting to think there’s not.
No matter what happens, I get screwed.
I’ll never forget that day. You turned your back on us all. You were willing to lose everything, for a gain that don’t even matter.
I’ve gave up too much for you. I’ve stood so you won’t fall. I carried my heart around my neck...
What Have I Become?
Who am I? I wish I knew. I don’t. I have no idea.
My old ways were as some may say, peaceful, enjoyable, maybe perfect…I don’t think so. I’m nothing as I used to be.
Where did I go wrong? Where did I face the problem that I took the wrong way?
I don’t know who I am anymore, I don’t know where I belong, I don’t know where to turn.
Can you help me? Can...
Is This The End?
There is no love. There is no hope. There is no game.
Lead me into tomorrow. Lead me away from this hell. Lead me into open arms awaiting my return. Tell me how it’s supposed to be, how you want it.
I won’t fight for nothing and I won’t give up for you.
Lies. Anger. Power. Faith. Hope. Love. Hate. Strength. Weakness.
Those I all have when I think of you.
When I look in your...
Passion
When our world turns black and all has faded.. Who do we turn to? Who do we look for? What do we look for?
We look for love. We look ahead to see what’s out there. We look for ourselves.
We stand above our challenges. We stand face to face with our greatest fears. There is a moment when you need to realize, face the facts and start to obey your heart instead of your mind.
No room for...
Disappear
I will not believe..what’s ahead. I will not remember..what’s behind. I will not fade..from your arms again.
What we lack in this world is our greatest fear. What we have accomplished is not our time of greatness, but our time of failure.
I’m along side a shadow, while you have a hand to hold. I look up to the stars, while you look down on me.
This…difference we have,...
May 2010
10 posts
Beg For Mercy
It feels the world is on my shoulders. I can’t hold much longer. I’m about to break.
It burns. It stings. It hurts so badly…your love.
I can’t live without it. I don’t know where to go. I don’t know where to look. It’s the questions that haunts all of us…searching for answers.
Where am I? Who am I? What am I? What have I become?
I’ll carve...
Our Creation
Is this our difference? Is this how we chose to live?
We miss so many great moments, great opportunities…Not because we are blind, but afraid of who we really are…Who we will become.
There is no reason to fear love, yet so many to feel it.
Don’t be afraid. I’m here to hold you.
As we get colder, I’ll be your warmth. As it gets darker, I’ll be your light. As...
Across The Sky
Feel no more pain. See no more hate.
Scream with me, believe in me, take me home.
With our only chance to make our dreams become real, become whole. Take my hand on this road. Let me help you understand the truth, not just what you want to hear. Don’t make things hard to believe.
If I could only love you again. If I could only remember what it was like, how it felt…
I will never...
The Fire Inside
The harder I try, the worse things get. More hope I build up, always gets shot down.
I’m so cold. I’m so lonely. I’m so lost.
I don’t know what to do. I don’t know what I am. But I know what I want.
And that’s you. Forever to hold. Forever to kiss. Forever to love without a care in the world. Without the screams of pain, hate and loss of hope.
The closer I...
Still We Stand
These feelings burn inside. These thoughts leave me with no place to hide.
If I can only see you, touch you..I would be happy again. Do you have any idea what you do to me? The way you make me feel. I finally open my eyes, take a breath and let it all out.
You make me want to be somebody beyond my power, that I know I can’t be. But for you, I can try my hardest. Just to please you, make...
Fallen
These are our separate ways. This is how our worlds are apart. This is how we decide the next move.
I love…all the moments we used to have. All those times we smiled together.
Everything we used to be.
Now it’s gone. It was so close to being back, and you walked away. I will never understand you, never know how it all works, but I will soon find out how it’s meant to be.
...
As I Walk
You are my screams in silence. Due to the fact, you will never leave my mind.
I though this was over, I thought I ended this…I was wrong.
To end this rapture, I will never do. To end these feelings, I will never forget.
You are to be always in my heart, my mind…. You will never be alone, never be afraid, never to fail…
I’m always here. I’m always there. I’m...
Enemy Of My Enemy
What choices we make.
Tomorrow is always a new day. Tomorrow is always so much more beautiful than today.
Can you tell me how it’s supposed to be?
Should we fight this feeling? Should we ignore the fucking fact that it’s not going to happen? Haha, You can believe all you want, listen to what you hear and soak it in because I know the truth.
This addiction that we have for each...
Ace
Ah, the pleasure in pain. Following me all around.
Where is home?Where is life?Where is love?
If you can answer these questions for me, I’ll then be happy.
This life remains unquestionable and there is no way to find out. Day by day we go on trying to figure up the reasons of what happens. Day by day we go on trying to believe the first thing we hear.
It will never work. Your lies will...
Shame
Your words. Are all lies. You can’t. You have no idea. What you want.
So much time has passed, yet you are still buried underneath your own shit. I think it would be about time you started to realize, open your eyes and see that you have started this war that I don’t think you can win.
You choke upon your own words. Swallowing the thoughts of guilt.
This is your life, your sorrow,...
April 2010
1 post
Nothing Less Than Love
Supressing feelings overwhelm my heart. I never knew it could happen.
No more tears, no more pain.. No more being alone.
My intentions are to hold you through all times…forever.
Never to hurt, never to fail. To be the one.
All hope had failed, all faith was gone…
Then there was you.
March 2010
4 posts
Hold On.
Hold on to me.
Breath my name.
Take my hand and walk with me.
I will never stop.
Until my heart breaks.
See this world as it used to be.
Beg for life.
Beg for love.
You do not show, are you done?
Cry no more. Mourn for me. I’ll never believe….In our life. Nothing is left.
Break me again.
Take Me Away
Walk the path with me. Take this chance upon this game. Show no pain and feel no love. Follow me into the world we used to know. If I lead the way will you follow?
You are more than I ever wanted, more than I need…but you are everything to me. I’m getting colder as I walk away. You are my warmth, you are my passion and my desire.
Can you please here me out this once? Let me show you,...
Your Hate Of The World
People look down on us because we are different. They depise us because we are something else. We are the ones who they don’t want. We are the ones who take the pain while they sit and watch.
As much as we look away, their voices still ring through our heads, telling us right from wrong. As much as we take the process of misery they throw at us, we no longer care because our day to rise...
Depiction
Sleep no longer, yet awaking never
(It’s all just a dream. Nothing we have is real)
You’ll miss this life, I swear, forever
(Why can’t I be the one you want)
I mourn for you until my dawn
(No longer shall I wait in a shadow)
Our love was here and now it’s gone
(And what is left isn’t good enough)
February 2010
5 posts
Always.
How much our love has decayed.
Soiled away into the seas.
Strength has faded away, leaving me with no help to carry on.
What you say, doesn’t really mean anything.
I feel, I love, I see, I believe. Still no hope.
What did I do? What do I do? Help is all I can call out.
You were my all, my whole, my spirit, my beauty, my emotions, my faith to carry on…
and
You were my past.
I...
A Fatal Romance.
How beautiful you are.
Amazing.
It’s the way I feel every second with you.
When we speak, I feel alive.
So special.
There is nothing in this world I want other than you.
Until now.
I used to have those feelings. Now I realize just how pathetic you are. All these emotions are nothing but a pointless game anymore.
Fatal.
You chose insecurity over help.
Your mistake.
To your heart,...
Following The End.
Sometimes you crave, sometimes you want. Nothing else really matters because you are alone, everything is much beautiful because you are.
Seeing things that are never to be, only hoping they could. Sitting alone talking to you, only makes me feel less of myself, I let you go.
Knowing you have not my love, but my sympathy.
I know who you really are, I can see you for what is right.
If only I...
The Strings Of My Redemption.
When it comes to be, I’ll never realize it.
I though we could have had something, I must have been wrong.
You show up, I stand by. It’s such a dissapointment that you have moved on.
Maybe there still is that chance and I will never give up my hope. My faith leads me on, leads me into your eyes.
I’m in my own little world, sitting alone, looking for my escape out. My new...
Closer To The End
As I write this to the one I love.
As you see, love never follows, it leads.
By the time you realize I’m no longer awake, no longer here, it’s too late.
I don’t belive I can move on.
I don’t think I can ever stop thinking about you.
But if I could stop and put it all behind me.
I only sit believing that it was me…I was wrong.
Am I Closer To The...