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I have failed myself..
I have failed you…
I have failed love…
I guess it’s all over now, there is no room left for me. I have fallen out of the picture, splattered on the floor. Being stepped on by all who walks…there is nothing more I can do, nothing more I can say.
I’m done.I’m finished. I quit. I give up. There is no point in trying anymore..
I guess he has more to offer, I guess he has more to give to you…except the love.
Where did it all go? It’s like it disappeared out of your heart, out of your mind, no more words are spoken to keep me alive…keep me breathing.
I don’t know what I’ve done.
I don’t know what I can do.
I don’t..
The feelings are so painful, they are so mind blowing and there is nothing I can do but take it and live on…I don’t want to leave you behind, I want you here beside me.
Too much to ask for? I thought so.
I’ve put up so much for you.
I’ve gave you my heart.
I’ve gave you my light.
I’ve gave you my world.
Only to be the one at the bottom, looking up with tears rolling down my face asking myself….where did I go wrong?
One day you will know my pain. One day you will know how I feel.
And on that day, I will be the one pushing you away, like you have done me. You just don’t see it do you? You have no fucking idea what you do to me..what you make me feel like..do you? NO!
I’m sick of the lies. I’m sick of this curse. I’m sick of living without your love.
When will you ever learn? When will you ever see?
Soon I hope, so I can put you through the hell you’ve sent me through.
The anger. The misery. The memories all build up and then explode in my head. All these moments I used to live for, ALL OF THEM!….gone.
You…made me tired, you made me careless, you made me horrible, you made me the way I am and I hope your happy because one day…just one day…
Forget it.
I quit!
Not matter what anybody says, I’ll never come back.
My cries are no more. My tears are no more. My love is no more!
I’ve become who I am now, and I must live it that way. No point in turning back.
I’m here now and there is no stopping me.
Try It.
I won’t be here to open the door for you. I’ll be there to only shut it in your face while you cry for me, sitting outside my door.
Then you can look into the sky, then you can just ask yourself this question..
What Have I Done?
I’m sure the answer will come soon enough. For now…
I’m gone.
Don’t come looking.
I won’t show.
